"and this was the death I chose for her. You could call it the death of Dr. Island, a death that will help someone else."
"He was frightened by women; now he knows that they are really very weak, and he has acted upon certain fantasies and finds them bitter."
The Death of Dr. Island was sooooooooooo good, man. I HATED it.
first-- hey, I hope you're feeling well.
i was looking through old pages, trying to decide the next one to edit... as I sloooooooooooooooowly, slooooooooooooooooooooooooooowly update the site...
what a pain in the ass.
Just like the girl from The Death of Dr. Island.
I'm sorry to do this to you... but... i... i have to yap...
Do you remember my incredibly-solid original take on the story?
reading it back, idk--did the Island REALLY want h--no, no. I'm actually completely correct and I have nothing to add to it.
okay, yes I do... the older boy's fear of women. Did that necessarily mean that Dr. Island wanted him to kill the girl to overcome it? Why'd it introduce the younger boy then, hoping he'd be killed instead when the older one wasn't killing the girl? Did Dr. Island just hope that prolonged exposure to the girl would cure his fear of them, while yeeting the boy would uh, resolve his violent fantasies? That makes sense, I guess.
Something I didn't pay much attention to was the girl saying "Sometimes he wants to kill me."
How'd she know that? Did he tell her? Or could she just read him, it was that obvious? He can't have attacked her, though, whether he wanted to or not, because it's only at the end that he overcame his fear of women.
Instead of killing her though, he did feed her the entire time they were together. Until lil bro showed up. Is it really just a coincidence? What triggered him to finally kill her?
One possibility I imagine is that he didn't actually want to commit the violence, he didn't want to USE HIS HANDS. idk whether it was actual fear or a moral revulsion--he had no problem clobbering the boy, and he'd been interacting with the girl for a while. So I have to lean toward revulsion.
So when he and the boy got ahold of that uh, plasma cutter or whatever it was, he suddenly had what was basically a gun, and a way of instantly taking her life in an impersonal way. I think something that supports this is that he only shot her a single time, he didn't chimp out and blast her a dozen times until her body was gone.
The only issue with this is that I don't remember the timing-- did he kill her the same night he and the boy found the gun?
I don't even remember what they were doing when they found it... am I just making this up in my head, or was the older boy looking for a way to escape the island? Didn't he try to destroy some --
look at me asking you, I'm such a retard.
anyway--I think that's right. He wanted to get off the island without killing anyone.
To BE FAIR to Dr. Island, I don't really know for sure that he HAD to kill anyone--maybe if he'd reliably demonstrated that the fascination was gone, he could have been released...
...on the other hand, "this is the death I chose for her"... ...did the island really PUSH HIM into doing it? Or did it just not save her when it had the chance? Not much of a difference I guess.
ok im gonna eat some nilla wafers brb
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yum. i've wasted WAAAAAAY too much of your time, I'm sorry. no Citizen Vigilante review, we'll do it "tomorrow" and idk, whatever else i said i'd do. kk. ttyl, plsstake care Godblesfrien
my day was made because my friend downloaded the St. GIGA archive and said he enjoys it. I've BEGGED and PLEADED with you(You) to download it, but you(YOU!!) never did. But he did, and he likes it. That made me rly happy.
not enough people listen to me when i tell them to download archives of old Japanese satellite radio stations. not nearly enough.
anyway... what else... im not used to this...
im so. im so. oh, you know what i miss? big flashy titles to catch a reader's eye. especially since uh... lmaoAAAAAAAAAAAA since when i update my blog now, the blog *page* is going to not uh-- you know, you click the thumbnail, and rather than displaying it in the index, it takes you to the page itself. which . whatever... you know what, im gonna put some bigass title at the top and just change it every day lol...
there
anything new with you? i hope you're doing good. not well, good. or both, but not just well.
you play any vidya today? i played uhh... Dark Souls... I killed the stupid fucking giant rat in the sewers. He raped me first, and ALMOST got me again when I tried getting muh souls back, but I got him. I uh, you know... just kept luring him to the doorway where he couldn't get in. Cheap enemies deserve cheap deaths.
So I'm close to the uh... what? The Gaping Dragon now, right... 
so INTIMIDATING but one of the easiest bosses in the game. so easy that you might get lazy and he might actually kill you. can't let that happen! i think you can summon both Solaire AND uh... golden boi. after this, i will of course KILL golden boi to prevent him from murdering my mute waifu.
Zzzzzzzzzzzzz im bouncing around lol, i played some Sekiro and Dark Souls 3, too. i *installed* 2 as well lmao... i need to finish 3 though for the first time, i never did... and ...psh, TECHNICALLY I Never finished Sekiro either, i literally got to the last boss(or second to last? the RAGE guy, you know) and didnt have the will to go on. it's such a ball-busting game, man. When people say "GIT GUD", no other Souls game forces you to GIT GUD as much as Sekiro does. you can only get so much extra health before you have to just skill your way through it. but i didnt have THAT much trouble with the game... the gorillas, of course, fucked my shit up, but ...other than that, it was moooostly not so bad.
...im so tired. lemme just go. here's some memes. i'll ttyl. pls take care.Godblesfrien
Where am i... hey, i hope you're feeling well. i've been making BIG PROGRESS with the website. BIGLY. it's uhh... fun, very fun. i really like how a lot of it is coming out. like look how NICE those cards look on the vidya page, isn't that just NEAT?
although, you know. i uh... i still dont really know how i'm going to uh...Zzzzzzzzz handle images. you know, a bunch at once. gimme a sec to.. how about this, does this work...
okay, for now, please accept this:
im way, way too tired to think of another way of doing it.
anything else... no, im so tired. im so hungry. im so. ttyl. Godblesfrien
all of the other posts are just examples written by Gem lol.
hey, i hope you're feeling well. uhhhhh... still working on the site. i'm--i know it's very plain rn, but i'll uh... make it a little nicer
i need to get used to writing in the actual page again.
i'm startingg to liek it. did anything happen today? yeah, but nothing i want to talk about... what else...
i beat the Gargoyles in Dark Souls. When I say that, I mean I summoned some random guy with a giant rapeclub and he basically 1-shot both of them.
Good old summonfrens. This game is... 15 years old. Even the remastered version is still 8 years old. And you can still find some guy to help you kill the Gargoyles.
I summoned Solaire too, lol.
i saved that golden knight guy... how long do i have until he kills the Fire Keeper? I'm not going to let him, I'm going to kill him first. I don't want or need his armor. So I'm going to kill him.
I WILL SAVE HER!
i know if you resurrect her, she can speak again. But she doesn't like speaking anyway, so you tell me what the point is. Go ahead. Girl without tongue is murdered, you resurrect her and she has a tongue again, but she hates speaking and so she doesn't. why not spare her the fear and pain of being murdered?
If she changes her mind one day, then she can let someone kill her I guess.
ALL GIRLS SAVED route. Of COURSE I will kill Petrus before he murders that priestess girl. OF COURSE I will NOT attack the cute barefoot dragon girl.
am i forgetting anyone? there's ... some sister of the witches that teaches you pyromancy, right? Does she die if she teaches you like, her final spell or something? Am I remembering that right?
what else... ... ... lol. cute spider sister. I WILL PROTECT HER WITH ALL THAT I AM.
anyway... i think that's all i have to say rn... i... well, i did another level of POOLS lol. It's so freaking... uncomfortable lmao. It's actually REALLY impressive how totally uncomfortable the game is to play. I highly recommend it. It's on sale rn.
no jump scares, just like, total... you can't even call it "dread", although some parts are scarier than others... none of it is "scary", but it's just liek, it's tense. do i hav-- how hard is it for me to put images in here now... gimme a sec...
this actually kinda spooked me EXTRA hard, because it reminded me of a nightmare I had as a kid, when some force was pulling me down the stairs and I desperately was holding onto the railing and praying the Lord's Prayer. It kept me from going down and I woke up.
Today I figured out the game archive grid with Gem, and honestly, the site is starting to look real. Neocities seems like the perfect home for this project. Now I just need to actually sit down and finish that Elden Ring article...
Spent the evening trying to figure out why my local browser was blocking my files. Turns out it's just CORS security stuff. Glad I don't have to rewrite the whole skeleton to fix it. Coping well so far.
Started rebuilding the website today. I'm stripped out all the old clutter. Keeping it minimal this time so I can actually focus on the writing for once.