Ave Maria

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz hey

Alma unrelated. or maybe not, I might install FEAR tonight. we'll see.

hey, i hope you're feeling well.

gimme a sec... what did I say I was gonna talk about... a fun dream, ufc recap, guy deletes comment, Eidola album. okay okay.

also, i finished --no I didn't, I *almost* finished my Sopranos page, where I recount how un-based the show actually is. I've got like a dozen points so far just from my memory, from the strangely-long scene of Tony's daughter being fucked to the portrayal of Italians vs other peoples, to The Vito Situation. The more I think about it the worse it gets. Look, great show OBVIOUSLY. One of the greatest shows of our lifetime, and obviously better than most of the slop coming out today. But it's still very-very obvious that it was written by a whiny self-hating Italian liberal atheist with mommy issues. I've got a LOT of issues with it, great as it is. I'll finish that maybe tonight.

uhhhh... what else? oh, I wrote my fun dream down, lemme find it...

dream

I'm playing the trumpet in like, a band that plays in this HUGE, AWESOME monastery that's like from Fire Emblem lol

I've never wanted to live somewhere so badly. Stone walls, old wooden doors, it was so beautiful.

Anyway, I was practicing with the other guys--I think they were from high school, probably because I told a hs story the other day--and the dumbest thing ever happened to me, my trumpet was like FILLED with valve oil, like I opened the spit valves and freaking Spirited Away sludge and oil come flowing out of it like a river of autistic spaghetti-- it WASN'T SPIT--not that there'd be anything wrong with spit in a spit valve. The point is, it was like a total pocket spaghetti moment, idk how it happened. But it was embarrassing, and of course there were RIVAL PLAYERS from another school who were all better than me there too. So I excused myself to go clean my trumpet somewhere else, because for some reason I couldn't just do it in the room with all the equipment that'd be necessary lol. I think I started walking toward a fountain in an old courtyard that I'd want to be in forever, and then I woke up.

It was nice, I loved that monastery. I want to go back.

You think I should start practicing my trumpet again? My dad used to play in jazz bands in NYC. He got kicked out of one because they decided they wanted the band to be all-black. Real nice. I was never as good as my dad, but I bet I could be. I think I remember once hitting a note he--this is probably a false memory, but I KNOW I hit a note that he either struggled with or couldn't hit. Wwhaaatever...

guy deletes comment

this is so dumb and petty lol. i dont know why I was thinking about this earlier--actually yes I do, some atheist was giving me grief in a livechat, so I said "I don't believe you" and he immediately stopped responding. This has worked 3 times now--but that reminded me of something else

totally unrelated, a comment section, some guy was calling someone dumb and being REALLY, REALLY haughty about it lmao. And in his comment, he misused something, I CAN'T 100% REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS, but it was one of those really commonly misused words/phrases like "begs the question" or "cognitive dissonance". Say it was the latter. So I replied to him letting him know he misused it and he deleted his comment lol. Just a funny little story. Fuck him, I barely remember it but I know that he was SOOOO SMUGLY calling some other guy retarded--OH, HE WAS DOING IT BECAUSE *THE OTHER GUY MISUSED A WORD*LMAOAOFAFG. THAT's why I loved it so much. I loved doing that to him. I'm a bad person. I think I even thanked him for deleting his comment too lmao like I didn't let him escape it. anywayy...

Eidola

Mend came in. Isn't it pretty?

yes, I also had to get a freakin Dragon, it's ICONIC I'M SORRY. surely THAT will be the last Dragon Quest metal figure I get. Come on, it's THE DRAGON. That's it, I'm DONE now. R-right?

anyway look what's in the jacket.

We're talking levels of based that shouldn't even be possible.

It's not the Most Christian Album Ever, and there's even some elements of Hinduism in it, and some questioning lyrics like "If there's a God out there somewhere, then I hope He can restore me to the man I was before I lost my way"[even in that song we get a confession of sin, a promise of prayer, the very concept of a "way", and His name capitalized.] but it's pretty undeniably an album about coming to Christianity, with all or most of the songs about Him, appealing to Him, referencing Him, with the Lord's Prayer spoken in Latin in one. You'd have to be swimming in a sea of secular cope to not call this a Christian album. We even get an appeal to Mother Mary in one of the songs.

It's not your Based Trad Orthodox Christian album, but it's a very wholesome, pleasant album, beautifully performed. Literally all of the songs are good. My one complaint is there isn't enough clean vocals, because Andrew Wells's singing voice is like the best I've heard since Claudio Sanchez. I love his voice. Most of the album is clean vocals, but it's not enough. As far as harsh vocals go, they're as fine as they can ever be.

vidya

do you wanna talk about video games? me neither. Lemme see... ...bro, I'm not even on the second disc of Dragon Quest VII, I just realized that last night. Wtf could POSSIBLY be on the second disc? AAAAAAAAAAAAA... anyway, you return to the priest's town in the present, and the villagers have created a story where they were all actually heroes who helped the priest defeat YOU. You rain on their pride parade by showing the kids in the town proof of what really happened, which will reshape the town in future generations. It was interesting, because the monument in the town created in the past to the priest now had a plaque with the false story stuck on to it, like how that shitty poem was added to the Statue of Liberty.

Uhhhhhhhh Zzzzzzzz idk man. Diablo 2? sry, Diablo 2? I'm looking for the Horadric Cube. I think, idk I'm barely paying attention. It's still fun though. Instead of hiring the local merc, I've kept my Rogue and she's doing whatever she wants to the enemy. I barely have to do anything. I'll be sad when Duriel kills her, which he probably will. I wish I could dismiss her. Of course I'll just resurrect her, but I don't want her to die in the first place lmao. It's such a pain in the ass to drag potions up to her though, isn't it? It'd be great if you could give them their own. Whatever. Maybe I'll just keep teleporting. Who knows. Who cares? I don't care.

books

haven't been reading sorry. a liitle out of it. just a little. im fine, everything's good.

ttyl

okay? pls take care. have a comfy day. God blessfriend

are we back?

i think we're back. how are you btw? are you doing ok? i hope so. Slav Alma unrelated.

idk, what do you wanna talk about...

vidya in h2?

or maybe...

vidya in h3?

Sry, sry im just dicking with my stupid little script still.

you wouldn't believe the EFFORT it took to get this to work. even with Perplexity, it took over half an hour, and it ended up being ME,

ME

who figured it out in the end. It's very simple, it just uses the keyboard mod for python, but the issue i was having wasss... the key-presses to activate the hotkey? it still, of course, uh, outputs them. so shift+2 to get my h2 tag, would also output an AT sign first. and not only THAT, but it'd write h instead of h2--it didn't even get it right. no logical failing on my part, I ASSURE YOU my uh... my string made perfect sense on paper. but the--anyway, the very-simple workaround was just adding an extra 2 into the string. Perplexity NEVER would have figured that out, not in its current state.

it still takes a human brain, a handsome, human brain, to get stuff done sometimes.

although truthfully idk how much i even like this hotkey lol... i still have to backspac--OH!!! OH, THAT'S A GREAT IDEA, i should add left-arrow presses into it so it lands you within the tags. that's a good idea, right? God I miss AHK from Windows sometimes, it was so easy and you could do like anything effortlessly.

i'll try to add that later. you know what else I need? hotkeys for COLOR.

COLOR!!!

that'll be neat. just a few, like idk, red. yellow. i have to be careful though, i dont want to freaking... conflict with anything. like imagine me writing the greatest piece of my life and for a little spice I close it in RED that's assigned to Alt+F4. real nicee.

anyway, enough abuse of the new tags. let's actually talk about...

vidya

...i haven't played any games today actually... huh, that's odd.

im in the mood to play something though, i just... am not doing it.

i think im almost done with Dragon Quest VII though. over 80 hours in. but on the other hand, when I say "almost done", I mean there's at least 2 more places in the past to warp to. And then God only knows what. literally, I have to resurrect God.

I don't LOVE the idea that God needs to be resurrected in the first place, but 1- it's infinitely better than the more common "God bad" stuff from Japan. But ALSO 2- everything that happens in the game was literally put into place by God in the first place. It's literally only by His will that you're journeying to resurrect Him. So erm, based.

ANYWAAAAAAAAY...

I just went through the best "side" story in the entire game. And it connected to an earlier one. (The town that was protected by a goddess statue--it belonged to a priest with amnesia.] Uh--btw, I can't use a closing paranthesis lmao because I stupidly assigned it to a hotkey for this, pretty cool, huh? I should have chosen a different key combo anyway...

so in this story we see the priest's original hometown. A demon has covered the land in a miasma and is going to attack the town, but offers the priest a bargain--he won't attack the town as long as the priest lives, if he switches forms with him. The priest accepts, and returns to town, making himself as scarce as possible.

The villagers believe the priest died when he went to confront the monster, and that the monster is now mocking them by wearing the priest's clothes. So they enlist you to kill the "monster".

You try, but when he doesn't fight back, you realize something's wrong. You ascend the nearby mountain to find the monster, who's lmaoing because his end of the bargain will soon be finished: the villagers will kill the priest and then he'll be free to attack the town.

but you kill him, of course, and rush back down the mountain to the town. The villagers have beaten and tied the monster-priest to a cross and are preparing to burn him.

Oh, btw, a kid is with you the entire time--his parents had originally gone with the priest to fight the demon, but died. Kid was mad at monster-priest believing he w as responsible, but always felt there was something wrong. Anywaaaaay:

kid stops the villagers, and the priest's true human form is revealed since you killed the monster.

Villagers are mortified by what they've done and what they almost did.

At night, the priest decides to leave the town, because he doesn't want the villagers to feel bad and be reminded of what they did whenever they look at him. He forgives them. He gets you to help him walk, since he's too weak.

The kid rushes to meet you at the gate and gives the priest the goddess statue that his mom gave him to protecc him.

("later"/earlier we see that it indeed works]

The end. It was amazing.

The priest perfectly embodied Christian forgiveness, with Gabo the wolfboy marveling at it.

not a happy ending, but a perfect one.

So many times in manga/vidya from Japan we see: "GRRRRAH, I WON'T FORGIVE YOU!" and in a way, lmao wait lemme just... collect myself here... I actually LOVE when a hero tells a villain "I won't forgive you", as if there was even a question. I think that's awesome. BUT: forgiveness is still better, and for the truly repentent not even epagans disagree with that.

reading?

no, I didn't read any more, I'll try to later. I'm a busy guy, try to understand. YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND. we'll talk more about Heretics later. It's a challenging book, though. Like it's not FUN to read, but it's so freaking good. reminds me of... Abolition of Man, I think. A bit in tone but also in how it feels to read.

You can't always just read about guys with swords going on adventures and having sex with hot girls.

anything else?

no. nnnnnn.no, that's all. pls take care of yourself, have a comforting day. God blessfrien

this is fine

Good evening everyone, you're reading Askmerica First, my name is Askalas J Asktes, we've got a GREAT blog for you tonight!

I think this is. fine, this is fine. wait, gimme a sec, i probably still have that br-tag script...

there...

it works. i have to enter my freakin password whenever i start it,
but
it
works
and it works great, i have it do a p-tag on Enter and a br-tag on shift+enter. pretty neato. what i should do is add even more tags to it, that'd be freakin great! THAT WOULD BE COOL, i could do uh... you know, h3, h2, etc.

i'll do that later. im happy with this.anyway...

hey, i hope you're feeling well today.

for no real reason, we're Almaposting today, we love Alma. GMan made a video about FEAR recently. 20 years old now. still better enemy AI than most fps games today.

my head is kinda killing me... that's not related.

my head is just always killing me. maybe literally. maybe i'm dehydrated, gimme a sec...

btw, how are you?

are you doing okay? I hope you're feeling well. lemme know.

what else...

vidya

Diablo 2? I killed Andariel and I'm in LUT G..OLAIN now. lol Lut.. Go... Lain. I've still never watched Lain. I used to always just look at it when I went to FYE with my friend. Look at her, rather. She's very interesting to look at. I like her hair tie.

gloomy girls are great. wtf was i talking about? Diablo?

i'm getting bored. i forgot how annoying the desert is, where the freaking beetles all send out electricity whenever they die. DUMB, I HATE IT.

i finished the sewers though, that was fun. uhhhhh.. i know Duriel's gonna be a pain w/ the ice, but it can't possibly be worse than trying to fight him as a pure-summons Necromancer. That was the worst time of my life.

THIS.IS.NOT.ENOOOOUUUUGHHHHH.

idk, it's been fun though mostly. i guess I'm just dreading the game getting harderlmao. it annoys me because you get 1 respec. in Diablo 1 you never HAD to respec unless, for some insane reason, you put all your points into Magic as a Warrior.

uhhhh...anything else?...

Dragon Quest VII. I finished the ...flying place. the place. where the people fly. now I have touhzzzzzzzzz. im so tired. it's fun though. I think it'd be absolutely unplayable without being able to speed it up. that's on me though, me and my broken goldfish millennial faggot brain.

kinda in the mood for a FPS though. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. maybe S.T.A.L.K.E.R.? idk, is the juice worth the squeeze lmao i've already played them to death... idkkkk... it might be fun toooo... maybe I could try playing as a Freetard for once.

i cant believe i drew that in 2022. where does the time even go...

books

I did start reading Heretics. It's fantastic. idk, what else do you want me to say... here, I'll give you an excerpt I really liked...

The theory of the unmorality of art has established itself firmly in the strictly artistic classes. They are free to produce anything they like. They are free to write a "Paradise Lost" in which Satan shall conquer God. They are free to write a "Divine Comedy" in which heaven shall be under the floor of hell. And what have they done? Have they produced in their universality anything grander or more beautiful than the things uttered by the fierce Ghibbeline Catholic, by the rigid Puritan schoolmaster? We know that they have produced only a few roundels. Milton does not merely beat them in his piety, he beats them at their own irreverence. In all their little books of verse you will not find a finer defiance of God than Satan's. Nor will you find the grandeur of paganism felt as that fiery Christian felt it who described Faranata lifting his head as in disdain of hell. And the reason is very obvious. Blasphemy is an artistic effect, because blasphemy depends upon a philisophical conviction. Blasphemy depends upon belief and is fading with it. If any one doubts this, let him sit down seriously and try to think blasphemous thoughts about Thor. I think his family will find him at the end of the day in a state of some exhaustion.

"And what have they done?" too true. I wrote a bit about that-- well, kinda similar, the way that like, subversive fags think they have a monopoly on "art", even though they basically just create disgusting trash. but that's a little more-- Chesterton here's a little more focused on... basically people with no convictions at all.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzz i'll comment more later maybe.

Anything else?

absolutely not, im tired. but i'll ttyl, ok? pls take care of yourself, have a happy day. Godblessfrien

everything is good

heyi h. i hope you'refeeling well.
me? lemme get a grip, 1 sec... ok. im still okay.
im writing this in MOUSEPAD. what do you think about that?
i've copied the paragraph break tag and I'm just ctrl+ving whenever i need
to
make
a
new line, it's not too bad. i should uhhhhhh... see if my old script still works. that'd be neat. make it just a little easier.

anyway. people forget man, SCENE GIRLS. that was the stuff. Goth girl? bleh. EMO GIRLS AND SCENE GIRLS, those were bestgirls by far
whenever i see someone say "big tiddy goth gf" i think to myself "there is a homosexual man". okay, that's unfair slander, but he's still wrong. small-breasted emo girl, THAT'S the ideal.
I remember a guy in high school--never mind. actually never mind. i'll still tell a story, uhhhhh... psh...
my friend used to date this scene girl, call her... Amy. Very attractive, nice girl. Then I dated her years later and she was just a stoner instead. But I didn't know it at the time, I just went over to her house to see her for the first time in years and the girl I knew was dead, killed by weed. all that was left was--well, she was still a nice girl. it's not great on-- can I find that meme of the girls before and after weed? lemme... forget it, if you look for "before and after weed" memes, you're just going to find retarded mugshot ones. but those girls were DONE, man. they looked like a witch had fattened them up to eat.
anyway... what was I talking about?
who cares

vidya

i finally have Aira in my party. That's nice, right? She's a max-level Dancer and a bit of a Warrior, which I think is a neat detail that matches her character. Since she is literally like, the sacred dancer of her tribe, and an amateur swordsman
uhhhhhhhhh... idk, i guess I'll go wherever the game takes me again -_- it's such a ... it's so BIG, it's such a BIG game. and so much of it just-- there's not a lot DRIVING you forward other than exploring for the sake of exploring. Which isn't bad. i guess. well, it wouldn't be bad IRL, but when you're playing a video game maybe it IS bad. I'm never going to find anything that BLOWS ME AWAY, I know whenever I teleport to a new place in the past, I'm going to find: a town in trouble. and that's it. sure, they're all unique and everything, but Zzzzzzzzzzzz. You can only repeat this so many times. In Dragon Quest I, there was 1 town in trouble iirc--it had a Golem in front of it--and uh, the rest of the journey is just YOU focusing on what YOU have to do to save YOUR princess. And that's a little more... I care more. But DQVII still-- I'm being unfair to it, but the point is that the game is SO FREAKIN BIG that it's hard to care very much.

Diablo 2?
I need to kill Andariel.
in Diablo IV they got rid of her breasts and nipple piercings/chains because it's "outdated" to correctly associate bdsm with evil. Her design in Diablo IV is so fucking dumb lmao
the one thing that's actually outdated--her stupid Bride of Frankenstein hair--they kept that of course.
uhhhhzzzzzzzzz idc, I'm never going to play Diablo IV lol. what a shame how bad the series fell off.
ANYWAY
im having. fun. idk if I'll really finish, though. I've beaten Diablo, but once I get into to the expansion, it's just likeZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz which is a shame because the Barbarian city is soooooooooooooooo cool, I LOVE it. Also Baal is a pussy.

books

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz im too tired. illttyl

thatsit

pls take care. have agood day. ill ttyl ok/ God bless frien

i give up

i literally give up. iT'S JUST NOT WORTH IT WRITING ANYWHERE ELSE-- maybe i'll... set up the uh... thing again. the thing. you know... the uh, ...psh... what's it called... LEmme see.. hey, how are you? iiiiiiii hope you're feeling well. lemme see... what do you wanna talk about...

vidya

Diablo 2. i played a bit of Diablo 2.
you know what i dont like about Diablo 2? half the classes are dumb and ugly.
i know the demake made the Amazon hideous, but I never thought she was especially good looking to begin with. her hair looks so stupid. and I usually don't believe in tits being too big, but there's something about those that really are too big. actually I'd probably feel differently if her hair wasn't so stupid looking. Her hair being tied up like a Jiri Prochazka antennae. it's just dumb, she looks DUMB. The Rogues are all way cooler looking.
anyway... the sorceress is ugly too, she's just BLEH, her face is just BLEH. but the FEMALE WIZARD IN DIABLO 3 😋 THAT'S morelike it
uh... the Barbarian is bald. once he gets a helmet it's not so bad, but still. he's a bald idiot.
the Necromancer is a freak. you know, my friend used to play as a Necromancer. His name was a misspelling of "Armageddon", something like "Armegedon" or "Armagedon" maybe, it was so dumb. What an idiot. And he just left it, too, he never changed it. That would have driven me INSANE. That's why naming a character is always the hardest part of an RPG.
I've always been a Paladin. it's a travesty what they did to him, he looks like you'd see security footage of him murdering a white person.

here.funny meme. :)

books

i got. what did i get...
Orthodoxy and ...Heretics by Chesterton. finally. il'llllllll readddddddd thaaaakopppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp
im tired im gonna go ill ttyl pls take care ok? feel good. Godbless

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mama mia

im writing this in neocities for once.okay? is thatt okay with you? 1 sec...
i hate this. i hope yourefeeling well though.
coolest armor i've ever gotten, look how good it is. it's twice as strong as the armor i'd been using. SAINTLY PLATE.
the only problem is ... what... oh, it has no magic resistance. so that's a problem when you're being spammed with magic and fire in the last few levels
but it's great against everything else.
after clobbering Diablo i restarted and fought The BUTCHER. he died in 2 hits. very comfy. he used to scare the everloving shit out of me. and he should, he's HARD if you're not properly leveled, he's gonna do whatever he wants to you. same with the skeletington king. butttttttttttttttttttttttt... i got him too.
this playthrough was the first time I've bothered carrying both a sword and mace. it really does make a difference. i never thought it was worth it previously, but it is absolutely worth it. Lemme go see how worth it it really is...
DOUBLE DAMAGE, THEY DO DOUBLE DAMAGE
Griswold wasn't kidding.
before i forget, lemme just... doesn't Dana White look like an anti-Irish propaganda poster from 100 years ago or something that's all.
uhhhhh... where am I in Dragon Quest VII... a town with ... with what? a castle town where the king is building up the army and people think he's possessed andzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzim enjoying the game again though.
i actually hate writing like this, so the post is now over.
Happy Columbus Day. find an Italian today and thank him for the Americas
otherthanthat pls take care. have a comfy day, God blessfrien